was a phone call from a good friend.
This is a friend who I traveled across the world with to Italy for two weeks last year (I think our hubby's tagged along too ;). She most likely learned more about me then she really wanted to know during this time, but she still loves me anyways. We made this "last hurrah" trip before both of us jumped into motherhood. They got preggo a month after we got back from our trip, and had their baby girl Eden last July. Here I am am, a year later, amidst the same emotions she went through.
She encouraged me to live in the moment instead of looking ahead at what life was or could be. She went through the same "grieving" process that I've been experiencing recently. Lately, she catches herself thinking ahead of when life should get easier, but she often forgets about the special moments she has now with Eden. I can so relate. I am too busy looking ahead or panicking about what I will be losing, instead of enjoying this CA-RAZY miracle of pregnancy. I don't want to spend my 9 months focused on negative thoughts, but rather on the positive aspects that life holds for me.
Thank you my dear friend, for showing me that it's okay to understand the reality of motherhood, but for also reminding me to not worry about tomorrow and live for today.
Another HUGE thank you is due to my readers and friends for your kinds words, messages and comments. I love reading them and appreciate each of you!
Of course these emotions will most likely linger on and relapse, but I can rest assured that I have friends and family that love me and who constantly encourage me to be a better person. I am so blessed!
“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. Matthew 6:34
5 comments:
Em, that's a very sweet post and wise words. I find them very encouraging as I wait for a pregnancy (coming up on 2 years in a couple months) and am reminded that we always long for what will be, but can end up missing out on the special times of the present. I hope you have a blessed remainder of a pregnancy that will be made all the more sweet by the blessing of your baby when he/she arrives!
Emily, it was great to catch up! I'm so glad we have each other to lean on...love the pics of Italy too - it feels like forever ago (although the one of just me is creepy ;) love you! Can't wait to meet the little Mancini (man-CHI-ni!!!)
I've known Kara her whole life... she is a treasure! As a mom of grown kids,I wish I arrived at your wisdom as early as you both have. It is so easy to fear, or think you're missing out -- when your greatest treasure is today -- with all its dilemmas and delights. The only place a woman is truly irreplaceable is in her own home, yet the culture seems to want us to direct our energy everywhere else... Enjoy!
Love this post! Glad you and Kara were able to chat about all this stuff...it's such an emotional time, but once your little one arrives you won't be able to imagine life without them. You're going to be an amazing mom - enjoy the rest of your pregnancy! Love you!
Hi Emily! Your post about your friend Kara was really sweet. I too have battled with anxiety and learning to be anxious for nothing and to trust the Lord with my future. Just remember the Lord is sovereign over all things. This has helped calm my fears at times when I have needed grace and mercy. Each time the Lord has provided. I too long for the day when the Lord will bless us with another pregnancy, but until then I will live in the present since we do not know what tomorrow will bring. Pregnancy is such a blessing. I will continue to pray for the health of your baby and you and Matt as parents. :)
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